Goodbye to 2011 :(

Just some blabber....

In the past two days, I have had two ice-creams. I definitely feel like I am on holiday. I have been exercising every morning, this morning I did an hour of exercise. I did the pussy cat dolls dance workout this morning. I sweated like a pig on a hot day. I can definitely see a big difference, I have lost weight and toned up, I just need to lose some more and tone everything up.

Yesterday we went to the beach, the water was just heavenly. I swam in one of the big tidal pools, I just wish that I had goggles at the time, because the fish in that pool was really quite amazing. I got slightly pink, but this morning I see that I have a nice golden glow. Today we went to the market, which has to be one of the best markets that I have been to. There was even thai food, at a market. I was completely god smacked.

As today is the last day of 2011, I think some new year’s resolutions are in order.

1. Make new friends in Pretoria.
2. Loose the last amount of weight and tone up.
3. Go to University and get amazing grades.
4. Be a better girlfriend.
5. Finish the books I have started.
6. Get my license
7. Go out more.
8. Learn to control my temper.
9. Be spontaneous.
10. Be open to new things.

So this is my ten new year’s resolutions. I know that every year, I might be so lucky as to maybe finish one things on my list, but this coming year I would like to try and finish everything on my list. What one thing has always been on your list every year, and you never seem to be able to achieve it. Mine was always to lose weight, something that has always been very hard for me, finally it seem like I might be close to achieving it. Never give up, you can do anything that you put your mind to, if you really want to achieve one of your resolutions, then you will. Make the list, and we will achieve them together.

This year has actually been amazing, hard but amazing. I have the best boyfriend and family, and trying to juggle them both has been a test. It did however help me discover myself, and learn that you cannot make everybody happy. It was not easy, and I wished at times that I could be with my family and my boyfriend at the same time, but sometimes it doesn't work like that.

I am both really excited and really scared for the new year, but like any adventure, you will be scared, you have no idea where you will end up. It is part if living, not knowing where life will take you, at least I have Matthew and I know I will be looked after and safe. I just really want to have time to say goodbye properly to my family and not be rushed. Lets hope for the best. See you all in 2012.

Merry Christmas

Christmas, A time to be joyful and spend time with family and friends.  My family used to always go to my grandparents for the big Christmas dinner. Turkey, Gammon, mince pies. loads of salads and loads of desserts. But there was never a joyful spirit in the air, everybody would eat as quickly as they could and just leave. So now for the past few years we have been having the Christmas lunch at our house, with all our close family. Last year had to be one of the best Christmas's to date.  Everybody was cheerful and joyous. Nobody had a sour puss face, and nobody was in a bad mood. It was so great.

Christmas this year... 

Josh, my little brother woke up at half past four in the morning and then woke my mother, my sister and myself up at half past five. Do you remember being at the age, when you would wake up as early as possible, you didn't quite think of the fact that you would still have to wait for everybody else to wake up before you would be able to open any presents. 

The smell of my mothers amazing coffee helped to get me out of bed at that inhuman hour and still be in a good mood. You have no idea what I am talking about, this coffee is amazing. strong and so tasty. So I don't mind waking up that early, just as long as I get to have some of Lynn's coffee. 

What are your Christmas traditions? Do you leave out a glass of milk. a few cookies and a couple carrots for Santa? Or does everybody in your family wear the Family Christmas Jersey, you know the bright red knitted ones, with a reindeer on the front.  My family does not really have many traditions, usually it is just that the whole family is up. We all have the Christmas lunch together, and usually we will go to the beach for a while. My mother said that this year there would be no rules, anybody is welcome and that Christmas is a time for giving and a time for love.Although this year we did make a new tradition, the Christmas punch, Spiked with Vodka, lol, I have to love my Mother, Oh and it has now become a tradition to have Pavlova as one of the puddings.

One of the things that I love most about Christmas is how everybody comes together for the big lunch, the food is amazing, mouth watering and if you are not careful you just might eat to much. So as to not feel completely guilty, my sister and I decided that we would go for a long walk, in the sweltering heat. boy did we sweat. It wasn't an easy walk, but I sure didn't feel guilty while have my turkey. 

Boxing Day

Boxing day or the day after Christmas is the day where nobody is suppose to cook, leftovers it the way to go. Turkey sandwiches, leftover salads and roast potatoes, which let me just say taste revolting cold. In our family there is always a minimum if three desserts. This time we had carrot cake, apple pie and Pavlova with strawberries. The desserts that we had for left overs was the carrot cake and the apple pie. Boxing day was spent at this breath taking lagoon, where everybody swam, ate and made merry, we must have been there for about 5 hours. This had to be one of the best Christmas's to date. Tell me about your Christmas.

My Long weekend.

So my long weekend, as did everyones, started on Thursday. We went to the airport to fetch Matthews Grandfather and took him home. We ended up getting home at about quater to seven, to find that the house had been broken into. Yes we had been robbed. They took the following:

My GHD.
Two of my favorite rings.
A lot of my Ed Hardy things.
My New York bag.
My parker pen set.
make-up brushes.
My old Black Berry
My old Lg phone.
My I pod
My Adidas training shoes
My bomber jacket.
They almost stole my hair dryer and diamond necklace.
My speakers.
My mouse

Matthews list

His Ipod
His computer, box, screen, keyboard.
His ID book
His stero system.
His pocket knife
His Mountain Bike
His tools
His deodorant
His Ipod

These are just the things that I can remember, they also stole all his mums jewelry that her mother gave her. Diamonds etc. They stole food, booze and lots of his dads things. They stole the lawn mower and iron. It just really makes me mad that there is so much crime, and in such a supposidly quiet area.

Love is Everywhere

Have you ever wondered what love is, I mean what it really means? Not just the superficial part, you know, having a partner and kissing and caring for each other. I know I love somebody, because t


Love is an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. In philosophical context, love is a virtue representation of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another"

Love is central to many religions, as in the Christian phrase, "God is love" or Agape in the Canonical gospels. Love may also be described as actions towards others (or oneself) based on compassion, or as actions towards others based on affection.

In English, love refers to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from pleasure ("I loved that meal") to interpersonal attraction ("I love my partner"). "Love" may refer specifically to the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love, to the sexual love of eros, to the emotional closeness of familial love, or the platonic love that defines friendship, to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love.This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.

Love may be understood as part of the survival instinct, a function keep human beings together against menaces and to facilitate the continuation of the species.
Some people even love themselves, it is a funny concept and those that really do love themselves will never in a million years actually admit to loving themselves. It is called vanity, you know the kind of people that cannot pass a mirror without looking at themselves and fixing their hair or something. The kind of people that when somebody says," Oh you look so beautiful today". Instead of saying thank you, they will say I know.

Anyway, back to the topic of Love, Everybody has somebody that they love, be it their dog, or any pet for that matter. It could be your family, i.e. Your beloved mother, or you boyfriend/girlfriend/ fiancé/ husband or wife. We can see love, and we sure can feel it. As a matter of fact, my boyfriend and I often electrocute each other, we will be going to hold hands and a spark with occur, it is quite unpleasant but so funny, we often say we definitely have that connection with each other, we make fireworks.

I want to talk about the different places that you can see love.

One is probably quite common, The airport. Yes many movies have shown this, Love actually, and dogma are just two of them, but next time you are at an airport watch out for the love, it is quite amazing. The arrivals are full of the joyful love, they are so excited to see their loved ones that they have missed and now they count down the seconds till they get to have them in their arms.

Departures is a bit harder to actually see the love because there are quite a few tears, but they are not painful tears, they are tears of love, because they don't want to say goodbye to the person that is leaving. If they didn't love each other, then they wouldn't be sad. Sadness is often mistaken for something else, when often is love.

Sometimes when somebody expresses anger towards us, we mistaken it for dislike, when in actual fact it is love. I know that my father would sometimes get really mad, but it was not that he was mad at me, he just loved me so much and was more mad at the situation that had happened than at me. Sometimes people will tease each other as a sign of affection, I know it is weird, but it is true.

Love is something that everybody has experienced, it is something that can bring the greatest joy we have every felt, and it is also something that can cause the greatest pain ever. Our hearts are like a beautiful crystal vase, once it is broken, you might be able to glue the pieces back together, but there will always be the cracks to show were it was once broken.

Some men are such pigs.

Matthew and I went to the shops to do a little bit of shopping, and when we were finished and we had done paying,something disgusting happened to me. This guy kept looking at me up and down, now as a female most girls are use to the odd glance, but what I wasn't expecting was to have him try and touch me, I mean how gross. And I know I wasn't seeing things, he really tried to touch me, and not on the arm somewhere worse. Then he kept smiling and looking at me with a really revolting look in his eye. When I caught him, he didn't stop there, he kept looking at me and following me, what made it worse, was that he was with his wife. That poor lady, she is married to such a pig, who has probably cheated on her countless times.

To all you pigs out there, leave us girls alone. Why can't we wear what we like and not have to be harassed. We do not put on shorts and skirt to have you try and lift them up. I swear next time a old man tries something with me I will turn around and slap him. Sexual harassment is an offense and you can be locked up for it.

DREAM ON ...... :-)

If dreams were real, I would be 26, I would have my dream flat, doing my dream job as the editor of a fashion/beauty magazine. I would be living with my boyfriend or fiancé at that time. I would have my own car, and not just an old second hand run arounder. I would have a pet to come to and have the best kitchen ever, where I would cook luscious meals for my man and for all our great friends when they come over for dinner.

This is a wish list for my future.

I want to have my own apartment, and I want to be able to decorate it the way I want to. I don't want to share it with people who are messy and noisy and rude. I want a crisp clean layout. my bedroom would preferable be a red and black colour scheme or black and purple colour scheme.

These are my top three bedrooms, there is just something amazing to them, I would love to come home to a bedroom like this. I love my bedroom, and always want it to look inviting. These definitely look inviting to me

The kitchen would be black and white, I always think that a black and white kitchen looks so clean.
I want to be able to have nothing on my sides in the kitchen, except for maybe the kettle, toaster and maybe one other appliance. I think it makes the whole room look much more spacious and clean when the sides are clear. This is a secret that my darling mother taught me.

So this is what my dream kitchen would look like.

Bathrooms. Ahhhhh. The one place that you can be alone. Am I right? Either when you are taking a dump. ( ewww I know.) And trust me girls, the reason your boyfriends take so long in the john is because they are either browsing the web, or they are so engrossed in the article in the FHM that they forgot to finish up. Yes, guys enjoy to read a book, or a magazine, it doesn't even matter what magazine it is, it could very easily be one of your Comso's for all he cares. But back to the point, I love to shower and bath, and therefore I want to have the best bathroom one day. A bathroom must always be clean, this the one place in the house that you come into contact with germs, so therefore you have to make sure that it is SPOTLESS!!! This are some of my favorite bathrooms.

Nice right? hehe, don't worry, I don't mind sharing my dreams.

The lounge and dining room was very easy, I know exactly what I want. The couch I want in black though with white pillows, but the same theme. With animals in the picture one day, white is not a good idea.

So this is what I would love my flat to look like on day or even my house and of it is a house, then I want a pool, I demand a pool, a giant pool. I will also have loads of plants all over the house. Like ferns, orchids. Orchids are my favorite, so lots of those.

Then the extras, I want to drive a really nice car. these are my favorite. Nothing to hectic. Lol

No house is finished without a puppy or a kitten.

I have always wanted two big guard dogs and one small dog to alert the bog dogs. these are my choices for pets. Are they not so cute.

I grew up with a border collie and so I would love to have another one. They have to be my all time favorite dog.

As for my dream job, I want to have the position as the editor of fashion and beauty magazine. This is something that I would love. I love fashion and beauty and I have always loved to write.

So that is my future wish list. What do you think of it? I think I can achieve most of them with hard work, anything is possible.

Dreams are important, without them goals would never be made and reached. Never give up on your dreams, they are what define you and make you the person you want to be one day.

XOXO
With LOVE

ITS SO FLUFFY ( I COULD DIE)

YAY

I have my new laptop, I am so so happy, you have no idea. it is pink and so lovely. Sigh, I could not be any happier. And on Monday I leave for a three day Vaca to Cape Town. Mwahahah. I am really really happy. What have you got planned for this festive season. A trip away? Or just staying at home, catching up on those missed epsiodes of 90210 or true blood? Whether you are staying on the couch or going on a long road trip, stay safe and have an awesome time.

Today was spent with my mother, we had breakfast, well she is the one who ate, I had a latte and just caught up with her. Then we did a few chores and then went to the mall for a bit, where I had a fruit salad, the first meal of the day. See willpower is not that hard to achieve, I mean if I can loose weight then anybody can. I have lost 6 kg so far, and I will not give up, there is definatly more to come.

Today I almost took home two adorable, boarder collie puppies, they were so cute, but I know that it would just be silly, but they are just so cute and fluffy. Wouldn't you just love to cuddle up to somebody this cute? I know I would. Well perhaps one day I will be able to have a dog of my dreams. I must admit that Matthew had a very good point, having a dog may be very nice, but what happens when you want to go away, or have a weekend away or even move? The dog has to be looked after, you cannot just leave it alone for a week. So for the time being I will be petless. ( that is not even a word.)


What are you planning on giving to people for Christmas? What do you usually give them. Do you plan on staying true to your amazing diet while you are with the family, or are you going to sneak that extra mince pie and just convince yourself that you deserve it? I know that it is so hard, but we all have to keep it up, there is no point in saying," I am on holiday, it doesnt count." Because it does count, oh trust me it does. Especially when you are standing on that scale, and those 5 kg that you had lost are now back on.

What do you think one should wear for a long road trip?? Skirt and baggy top, or jeans, or shorts? come on I need advice. And what should I pack, because I suck at packing, I really do. I usually over pack or under pack and it is never pretty. lol.

XOXO

LOVES

Good things come to those who wait...

I just hate not having a laptop, I miss out on all the news and updates, but thankfully my wait is slowly coming to an end, but wait that is not all, I am getting the replacement that  I want. This gorgeous PINK Sony Vaio.
My amazing mother organised it for me, don't you just love Mums. I had a nice enough time at home, except for some things that my dad had to say, but I need to be strong enough to believe in myself and not let what other people say get in the way of my own intuition. I have never been so happy, and it really does show, I have lost 6kg, and I know it might not sound like a lot, but trust me, for me it is really great, almost all my cloths are too big. One of my top secrets is that I do not eat bread, and if I do it is like once in a blue moon.



I have my move coming up next month and I am really scared. I don't know what to think, and how I will become use to such a big change, I know that it is a change that I want and need to do in order for things to go right and so I can succeed in my life.

This morning being a Saturday and being a day that I should be able to rest and sleep in, everything went the opposite of what it should. I woke up at 05:44 and then it took me ages to get too sleep. I woke up at 07:00 and had to get up. After getting up and throwing some pants on, I ventured out, too find Russell getting ready to leave, people had tried to break into the office again, but this time they had been caught. What a morning. So there I am, just watching 90210, when Matt ventures out of the room to tell me, that he doesn't feel well. My morning was spent, cleaning ( not that I mind, I actually was in a mood to clean,and nursing Matthew, which seems to have paid off, because he looks and feels much better.

My afternoon so far has been spent, tin rattling for the SPCA ( Animal Welfare) and checking in at the office. Speaking of the SPCA, I am amazed at how many people just walk on by, it is one thing to claim to love animals, but when it comes to just giving your loose change, they pretend that they haven't seen you. Then there are others who will give almost R50,00. Animals cannot speak for themselves, they are helpless. You cannot expect the SPCA to always help you with your animal when you don't help them.

What are my plans for tonight? Well probably to a workout class, then have a nice hot shower, do my nails or clean the room. Then have a great glass of wine and a fantastic meal. Depends on how I feel, but pretty much just a relaxing evening.

Tomorrow I would really love to go to the beach, I went last weekend and got really brown, now I can confidently wear my bikini with pride. I will hopefully, possible have my new laptop tomorrow, I know I was talking about next week, but things are looking up. I will keep you posted.

XOXO

Long time no see

Recent Deets

You might all be wondering why you have not heard from me in  a while. Well my laptop was stolen,and insurance is taking a while to pay out. I miss you guys,and I miss my laptop. Yes it will be fantastic to have a new laptop, But I miss being able to update my Blog everyday. I was able to use my friends computer to let you guys in on the know.


I am officially no longer a teenager.I am 20!!!! That is right today is my birthday, I love having my birthday,it is one day that you can be spoilt and not feel guilty. Also another great thing is that  you are able to see who your true friends are. And it amazes me how the people you thought where your friends are the ones that don't wish you,and the people you would never have thought of are the ones that always wish you. My plans for today are shopping with m,y mother, we were going to go shopping this morning but she decided on doing it this afternoon. then it is a family dinner with my fam and my boyfriend. My sister is making me a chocolate log cake, yummy. Your birthday can be a cheat day right.

General 
Other news,I am trying to gear up for next year. Student loan approval, I hope I get it, I really need to study, life will be so hard for me if I do not study and become what I want, for everything now you need a piece of paper. Please all hold thumbs for the next couple of days, and I promise I will inform if there is any news.

Love life

This department could not be any better, he treats me like a queen, he always wants to make me happy and he would buy the world for me if he could. I have never been so happy and never thought that being this happy was possible, I know that he would never let anything bad happen to me, he is very protective and even though I get a little irritated, I know he a=only means best.

How well, finally my mother and I get to go shopping yay, will tell you all about it.

Xoxo

TGIF

Todays Deets 
Its Friday, it seems like just yesterday that I was watching the clock, waiting to go home for the weekend. Today a lot is happening, it was Grandpa Tony's birthday, and then Matt's brothers are arriving later today. I have to finish the slide show that I have been working on, which kind of makes me stress a little, I hope I can get everything done, because I have to bake and cook tomorrow for the surprise birthday party. I also really want to get a pilates class in later today. Hold thumbs that I can get everything done.


Fashion.

So as you may or may not know yesterday I was not in a very fashionable mood, but today I am. I am wearing my floral skirt, with a black vest with a black military with pink wedge heels. I did my hair perfectly and my make up looks great. I must say that I think I did well today.  I love fashion and I cannot get enough. I have found a pair of leopard print high heels. I want them, I have fallen in love with them. they are R 160 rand from Mr Price. 

GENERAL DEETS


Somebody tried to break into the office, while we were in it, it is unbelievable you can't even feel safe when you are in your own office. He was trying to break in with a crowbar. Other than that today was fine, I taught a cooking class this morning and then went to mosselbaai  to buy a birthday present for grandad.

I am feeling really hungry but I have no clue what I should eat. I don't want to eat something that is really fattening, but we will see how hungry I get. hehe. I am trying to get a head start on Christmas shopping, I have a present for my Mommy, little sister, big brother and almost brother in law, and my boyfriends dad.

Later tonight I have a gym class and then I need to get the brothers rooms ready, they arrive late tomorrow night. I also need to make sure that I have all the ingredients to make a birthday cake for my boyfriends grandpa.

Christmas is the time of year when everybody gets together and you can just feel the love and warmth from everybody.

FASHION


Today I didn't go all out, I straightened my hair and did my make-up, but I just threw on my tights and blue button up tunic with my white ed hardy jacket and black pumps. See nothing fancy, but I had one of those days where I would have loved to have just gone to gym and tidied the house. Tomorrow I will hopefully be in a more fashionable mood and will have something fabulous on.  At least my hair is nice and silky smooth and shiny.

LOVE LIFE


Love is great, on the 26th I will have been with him for 15 months, still going strong, I just don't know what to get him for Christmas, guys are so hard to shop for. Have you got any ideas? I could use all the help I can get.

Okay I gave into hunger and had a pasta salad, sooo good.

TIME FOR A NEW LOOK

I decided that it was time for a new look, not for me, but for the blog. It needed to be updated, and so I spent most of the morning doing exactly that.I love the new look, so I hope that you do to. I have always loved fashion and I wanted to try and portray that in the blog, but at the same time I want to stay true to myself. 


Today I am sporting a very comfortable pair of white cotton pants, which are very smart but boy are they comfy, paired with a black and white striped shirt and my black blazer. I have a string of pearls on and a pair of black Mary Janes on.


Speaking of fashion, have you seen all the latest trends? Stripes seem to be making a come back,sailor girls here we come. Another favorite has to be bright, bold nail colors. I am sporting a coral pink, which is Gorgeous. What are you sporting for the up coming summer. I have seen a very gorgeous leopard print bikini but I don't know if it something very summery. What are your thoughts?

 


This Saturday I am helping organize a surprise birthday party for my boyfriends grandfather. I have to finish the slide show that I am doing for him and get a menu together. I am usually so great at deciding what to make for dinner, but I haven't really done this sort of thing. I have found this amazing dessert though it is mini puffs stuffed with chocolate mousse or melted chocolate. yummmmm.


what is your favorite dessert. Mine is anything to do with chocolate. And I mean anything, I love chocolate, I once had a chicken fillet, with a chillie and chocolate sauce, and it was so delicious.

11 Things that make me a woman

What makes me a woman?

It is really easy to just take a quick peak down my blouse and declare, " Yes I am indeed female!" But what really makes a woman a woman. I have put together a list of the things I think make me a woman.

1) I Love fashion, so much, and yes some may say that, that doesn't make you a woman, well I say for me it does, I have never met a 100% straight guy that gets so excited over a pair of shoes or a G&B Bag like a girl does. A real woman will love to spend hours in a mall just shopping.

2) I love chocolate, anything chocolate. I think all girls just cannot resist that dark little piece of temptation. When we are down and just want to relax a piece of lint 80% dark chocolate is just what we need.

3) Once a month, the inner bitch in all of us will come out, and we become ratty, moody and super sensitive. At this stage nobody can predict what we will do, if we are going to burst into tears because Nemo lost his Dad, or if we are going to be in a bad mood all day because somebody finished all the milk and didn't replace it. But this is one of the things that make us woman, and if you cannot handle me at my worst then you don't deserve me at my best.

4) We have the right to take half an hour or more if needed, to get ready, be it for work or for a dinner date. If you want your girlfriend or wife to look as good as she did when you first met her, let her take her time, Rome wasn't built in a day. I know I take 30 minutes and sometimes longer to get ready.

5) We are allowed more than one handbag, they are pretty and are more like a fashion accessory. Sometime we just want a small clutch bag and sometime we want big bag that could fit the kitchen sink in. But this is something that makes me and other girls a woman, if we used a moon bag, I think most guys would wonder what was wrong with us.

6) We love to be spoilt, buy us flowers, chocolates or just buy us dinner, we will be so happy, not because we are spoilt brats, but because we just love to know that we are cared about and loved, the little things count.

7) We work hard, and after a very long week, we would like to catch up with our television programs, we don't ask for much, but it would mean a lot if you wouldn't mock it or talk loudly over it.  We put up with a lot from men and all we ask is let us watch 90210 in peace. Bring us a cup of coffee. that would shock us.



8) After a crappy day at work we will still slave over a hot stove, to prepare a meal for the man we love, because we know that even though our day was not the best, your day was probably not any better, and instead of taking out all out anger on you, we sip on a glass of wine and serve you up the best grub in town.



9) We will choose what our man wants over what we want, if he really want to watch the latest action movie we will watch that with him over watching the latest romance.We are kind and sweet but do not take advantage of this, because we can be mean if we really want to be. And then you will have to do more than buy us chocolates and shoes to get forgiveness.

10) We are maternal, and will always want to look after something, so let us, if you are sick let us take care of you, let us make you lunch. Do not say that it is a bother. Being maternal is a womanly thing, it is why we have children. We also like to feel needed. So don't make us feel like we can't do anything, even if we just set the table or salt the chicken for the braai. It will make us feel like we did something right.

11) We love to look good, so let us exercise, you will like the results, so don't make us feel bad for being late for dinner. We want to exercise so let us. Be grateful that we do not look like shamoo. We will never be happy with our bodies so accept it and just say you are beautiful always.

We are woman, we are wonderful and will love with all our heart.

The Rush On Thursday

I don't quite know what to say. I had an amazing sleep, and great morning,but once I had sat down at my desk the day just took a turn for the worst, the Universe is defiantly testing me and I keep failing. I know that you can't expect everything to go your way, but also don't judge others let thee be judged.  Fashion, movies and books are what keep be sane in my moments of pure frustration. Exercise seems to be another way for me to let of steam, what I really need now is a punching bag lol. I had never been an obese person, just chubby, comfort eating was my  problem, and I never accepted it. This year I started to come into my own, eating less and it was only two months ago that I become serious about myself, I started exercising regularly and eating right, I stopped bread and had rice, salads etc for lunch and kept the carbs for special occasions, like anniversary and dinner parties, but then the next day I so intense cardio. I feel better about myself and I am more confident, I am not at my goal yet, I still want to tone up, but I can look at myself in the mirror and not want to look away.

Self esteem is very important, many woman think that to be sexy you have to dress a certain way, when in fact it is the way you hold yourself, and how confident you are. Yes the way you dress helps, but then if you have confidence  you are to wear that red dress than a person that has no confidence and just want to hide in the corner. To make it in life you have to have confidence. I have only started having confidence in myself and it is not always easy when you have two sisters that are beautiful and have never had to work to be skinny. But that will just make me appreciate my body more.

Wishful Wednesday

Okay so yesterday's post was pathetic, but that matched the day I was having, I had such a krappy day, words cannot describe how krap it was. Today however is doing much better, I have started applying for bursaries and I feel fabulous, I am doing Pilates later today, and exercise always makes me feel great. Then I get to tuck up and watch a movie in bed and have left overs for dinner, if I want food.

My brother is down later this week, I see him on Saturday because I have to work on Friday. But that is cool, at least I get to see him. Then the following week I am busy, I have to finish my boyfriends grandfathers birthday present and help organize his birthday party and then my boyfriends brothers are down for a while which is really cool, this month seems be getting better and better, I am really looking forward to celebrating my 20th birthday and to be moving to Pretoria next year yay, to study and live on my own, the living alone part scares me a bit, but at the same time I am excited about the adventure.

If I could have one wish it would to be able to pay for my University, is there no body who wants to sponsor me hehe. what do yo wish for?

Thoughts for Tuesday

Yay, I tried on a pair of jeans this morning, that I couldn't fit into comfortably the last time, and they slipped on. Yes I still want to loose a bit more and tone up but damn it feels good to be able to say, ( I AM LOOSING WEIGHT!). On other news my older brother is coming down this weekend and then the following week my almost brother in laws are coming down. Busy busy, and this month is my birthday month. just 28 days till I turn 20 whoop whoop. But now the hard part starts, what to do for my birthday, have a big party or just something small with a few close friends and family.

the search for financial aid is still an ongoing process and it  makes me so sad and I just want to give up all hope. Nobody is behind me, I am in this all alone but when I do succeed I will feel very proud of myself.

Dream Date

Okay girls lets get creative, what is your dream date? Is it going to a restaurant or is it a home cooked meal with candles everywhere?  You tell me?

My dream date is to first spend the day at the beach with my man, tanning and having a pic-nic, then we will go home and he will run me a bubbly bath, with candles in the bathroom, pour me a glass of rose with my favorite music.

Then he would have started making my favorite meal, sweet and sour pork served with Chinese noodles, with pineapples chicken. Dessert would be chocolate mousse and strawberries with dark chocolate. We would sit and watch the sun set together sipping wine and just talking about all things good. If I happen to fall asleep he will carry me to bed and kiss my forehead and tuck me in.

I am such a romantic girl and I love the little things, be it a flower on my pillow when I wake up, or knowing exactly how I love my coffee and making it so that when I get out of the shower, I have a nice hot cup of coffee. Or even just knowing that I am going through I rough time and understanding. I think every guy should know what his girlfriend likes and they should try to do those little things as often as possible, it makes us girls feel loved and special and every guy should try to achieve those things

after the weekend

So I went home, I saw, I concurred and I left, I miss my mummy and daddy. But I will be back home next weekend. YAY :-)  I love spending time with my mother she is the best. Yesterday I got a bit to much sun, and now I am burnt horribly. But luckily I shall go brown pretty soon. I am stressing my but off about next year. I am emailing magazines and companies to see of anybody does sponsorships, I need to find something and soon. Other than that life is good, I will soon be getting my first gel overlay on my nails done, yay, and later today I am going shopping yay.

My boyfriend decided to stay home today, so I am all alone and miss him, but you have to give your partner space sometimes, room to breath and to miss you.  So that means that I am without him today and then when I get home he is going out with his friend, LOL well at least he will really miss me hey.

So finally I am getting to go to the mall, I can now get all the little things that I need. I want to look at a new bikini and get my toiletries, as silly as some people may think toiletries are, they are an essential thing for every girl to have.

Thoughful Tuesdays

Today is a cold gray day, but not even the weather can put me down. I have my heels on and I feel great. I woke up and straightened my hair and did my do. Do you just get those days when you feel like dresses smart. Today was one of those days, Sunday was a day that I really just didn't know what to wear, and thankfully all we did was stay at the house and did nothing.

So as many of you have noticed, the days are getting longer and the nights are slightly warmer, we can actually  wear shorts and skirts without leggings. This all adds up to the conclusion that Spring is in the air. With any new season comes a new fashion trend. After much observation, I have come to the conclusion that this season girls are rocking the florals and bright colours.

Remember to always dress for your body type, I have made the mistake of wearing a maxi dress and I a very short person to I looked a little weird, always make sure it looks great on before you buy it, don't just guess, you have to try a piece of clothing on.

Another craze that had it the South Coast like a storm is bikini's, in all cuts and colours. Leopard print is still quite popular, and shocking pink and other luminous colours are making their return, back on the shelves once more. But there is nothing worse than somebody wearing a bright coloured bikini and they are white white, almost luminous themselves. Ladies, if you cannot find the time to lye out in the sun, then get a self tanner, if you shop around you can find an inexpensive one, at Dischem I found one for R39.99, you don't have to use it all the time, but it will give you the confidence to walk out in you new shocking pink Bikini and let you tan safely and gradually get a tan of your own.

But don't choose a skimpy bikini if you know that you still have a little wobble to get rid off, do exercises, thinking that it will go away on its own won't help, you need to eat right and exercise. I have been exercising and eating right, I do not have bread, for lunch it is brown rice or a healthy pasta salad. (http://www.cookinglight.com/food/recipe-finder/pasta-salad-recipes) and for dinner just cut down your portions. Throughout the day it is very important to drink lots of water, 2 liters is recommended but anything from 1 liter and up is great :-)

Mondays ....

Mondays are those days of the week that everybody dreads, it is a day that has to come no matter what, and they usually go by very fast. Once Monday is over than everybody starts to count down the days till Friday. For me this Friday I go back home, my older sister is coming down from Joburg till Tuesday, so I am going to be away from my lovie, but just for three days, I am sure he can live without me for three days. I want to tan and go to the beach and hopefully go to Knysna and then on Tuesday I come back to my matty.

Today I went into a nail shop, I really want to make my nails look better, I was about to buy some acrylic nails but they didn't accept cards, so I had to leave it. But I will get my nails looking great once more.Tomorrow my mother might be in town and then we are going shopping and I really need it, to just be able to be alone with my mummy for a morning, so here is holding thumbs that it happens.

So after I started doing the Kim Kardashian fit in your jeans by Friday Dvd, I cannot get enough.I absolutely love exercising, and I would do it everyday if I can, but four times a weeks is my minimum, I would like to exercise everyday. Summer is just around the corner and we all want to look good, I know it works cause I have already seen a difference, in the three days that I have done, if I can do this until the summer holidays,I will no longer be too shy to step out in my bikini.

If we work together then we can get to the perfect body and fit into a great, cute little bikini.

Frustrating Fridays

Ahhh watching the clock.. tick tick tock. it seems like time is going slowly today. It is the kind of day that makes me wish that I had stayed at home, I had the worst night sleep and NEED a good cup of coffee , you know, the type of coffee that just the scent of those coffee beans, is enough to make all your worries go away. Oh and I also need a good shopping day, without a time limit would also be nice. lol saying with a credit limit is called " day dreaming". Whose with me? talking about whose with me, why have I got no followers ;-( are my blogs boring, I get lots of page views so why don't you join me and we can have some fun.

Last night  my boyfriend and I kind of had a fight. So there were tears on my side and shouting from his. But like any loving couple we kissed and made up. Sometimes it is a good talk about the things that are bothering us and lets us work on them.

What is everybody's plans for the weekend? I have none, well Saturday night we are going to the Octoberfest ( Beerfest) but other than that,I just want to relax and enjoy myself, perhaps pamper myself. I am going to start uploading videos on youtube so please go watch them, my channel is thejennmatty.I know it weird but who cares right :-)

I wanted to introduce you to a furry member of my family, her name is Dutches and she is so Adorable.

 Okay well that's all from me for now, I promise to take lots of pictures.

xoxox

Glamed up

Hey all,

So I promised I would post pictures of my room, sorry that they weren't posted yesterday, I was so busy, first my mummy popped in and I went for coffee with her.

This coffee shop is so amazing they make the best coffee and I just love the way they make these little images in the foam. did you know that they do this with a tooth pick. I once had a swan in my foam, how amazing. Me and my mother didn't do that much but the time together was very special. After fetching my little sister from the airport I went back to work. After a long day of quoting and costings what I needed was a nice glass of wine.


So here are the pictures that I promised

This is the side of the room with the bed and dressing table. I am so pleased with the new bedroom layout. 

This is the side of the bedroom with the window seat and the wardrobe, I know it is a pathetic wardrobe but it does the job just fine.  Yes that is my exercise ball which I do use.

 For work today I am wearing a pencil skirt and a blue and white striped shirt with black Mary Janes. Today is a very slow day, it is only 10:48 and I finish at 17:00. oh well, tomorrow is Friday at least I can look forward to that.
What I to know know from all you beautiful people out there, what colour nail vanish are you sporting this week. Should I be creative or should I just go for the plain French tips?  I have no clue and I really want to make my nails look fantastic, they need some pampering.

I really love this, But I wouldn't know where to get it...

 

 

There is defiantly something about this that catches my eye, but I don't know what it is.

And of course the ever fabulous French Manicure