The Rush On Thursday

I don't quite know what to say. I had an amazing sleep, and great morning,but once I had sat down at my desk the day just took a turn for the worst, the Universe is defiantly testing me and I keep failing. I know that you can't expect everything to go your way, but also don't judge others let thee be judged.  Fashion, movies and books are what keep be sane in my moments of pure frustration. Exercise seems to be another way for me to let of steam, what I really need now is a punching bag lol. I had never been an obese person, just chubby, comfort eating was my  problem, and I never accepted it. This year I started to come into my own, eating less and it was only two months ago that I become serious about myself, I started exercising regularly and eating right, I stopped bread and had rice, salads etc for lunch and kept the carbs for special occasions, like anniversary and dinner parties, but then the next day I so intense cardio. I feel better about myself and I am more confident, I am not at my goal yet, I still want to tone up, but I can look at myself in the mirror and not want to look away.

Self esteem is very important, many woman think that to be sexy you have to dress a certain way, when in fact it is the way you hold yourself, and how confident you are. Yes the way you dress helps, but then if you have confidence  you are to wear that red dress than a person that has no confidence and just want to hide in the corner. To make it in life you have to have confidence. I have only started having confidence in myself and it is not always easy when you have two sisters that are beautiful and have never had to work to be skinny. But that will just make me appreciate my body more.